I was living a shallow life

 

I thought I had everything. I thought that my life was so good and I was “trying” to do anything to keep it that way. I was living a middle-class life but I always felt like I never have enough for the things I want to improve my life. We were trying to bring in enough money to make our ends meet, but ALWAYS we were running out of money by the end of the month.

One day, everything broke down into little pieces. My husband and I separated, and I ended up alone, with no family, no money, and no place to stay.

I wasn’t feeling supported. I was waking up tired and until midday, I was emotionally and physically exhausted. I was hiding my emotions because I thought this way my life will change. I was secretly blaming others for my miserable life, and I had no power to change it.

I remember feeling so confused. All the dreams I had since I was a child, vanished.

I was feeling guilty every time I wanted to buy something for my heart. I couldn’t afford to pay my bills on time, even though I and my husband were making good money.

Being alone I realized that I was fighting with my husband more often than we were eating. It was so normal for us to fight all the time that we weren’t even aware that we were doing that.

Glancing in my life, I saw that all my relationships had something in common. My heart was broken, my mind was full of clutter, and I was experiencing the same thing over and over. I was alone, and I was still feeling the pain of my past.

Our love story started so beautifully. He proposed me after 30 hours since our first kiss. I said “I DO!” and I thought I was living a fairy tale. But that fairy tale vanished in less than 2 months. It was like a cold shower. Everything started to change.

After 7 years of marriage, we couldn’t find anything in common. I was more and more irritated and frustrated. I was feeling good only when we were out with friends or at some party.

When we broke up, everybody was in shock. You know those couples that are getting along very well in the society and they seem happy but when they are coming back home, they ignore each other? We were something like that.

On top of all that, we were really struggling financially. Even though we were earning lots of money, we had no idea how to manage the money, how to increase our financial thermostat, and how to enjoy having money.

Working hard for money, we didn’t have time to enjoy our lives. We thought that that’s the way it has to be.

I BELIEVE A WOMAN CAN BUILD EMPIRES

or destroy them

 

After I realized how messy my life was, I had an honest moment with myself, and I answered these questions:

  • If I continue on this path, what are the chances to improve my life?

                                        The answer was loud and clear: 0%

  • If I change something in my life, what chances do I have to improve my life?

                                        The answer was: At least 5% – I was very pessimistic

It was a beginning! I became my own detective and step by step I turned everything around in my life that was not working.

Don’t get me wrong, in the 7 years of marriage, I used affirmations, positive thinking, applied the Law of Attraction, everything I knew and I learned about personal development. Things were changing on the surface, on the inside, but on the inside, I was feeling the same.

I’m not saying that all the above are not working. THEY ARE WORKING, but a piece was still missing. I knew I needed a different approach and I needed to find that missing piece.

I went from being weak, sad, and frustrated to

BEING EMPOWERED, HAPPY, BALANCED, AND LOVED

 

I went through a process that helped me uncover everything that was holding me back from living the life I wanted to live. Piece by piece, I removed every block I had around money – that was keeping me stuck in the same financial reality – and I  healed the wounds that were making me to create the same drama and trauma – without even being aware – OVER and OVER again.

After a short few months, my husband and I were falling in love again. We became so connected, it was something beyond what we can express in words. Our souls connected at a deeper level and it was so easy this time.

We are traveling whenever we want wherever we want. Our home is full of love, peace, and joy. We live a life WE LOVE. We support each other in our activities and in our businesses. When we are discussing something, we talk like 2 adults, not like 2 kids in adults suits. We spend more time in family and less time working.

We have 3 beautiful girls, and they are growing up in a safe, loving, and happy environment. We chose to homeschool them, and it is so fun to teach them.

I became financially independent and free. It is so easy to do things now, even though I have a lot more on my plate now than I had before. I wake up in the morning with a big smile on my face, happy to start my day. I create things I love, and I teach my daughters how to be and feel empowered, happy, loved, and peaceful.

I chose to change my life because:

  • I wanted to be an example for my little girls
  • I wanted a better childhood for my daughters – I had a terrible childhood
  • I wanted to show my daughters that they can be loved, cherished, and supported
  • 9 years ago I said in front of 150 people, that I will bring transformation into the world – in order for that to happen, I had to transform my life first

 

It became my mission to inspire and support other women in their journey as well. When my life shifted, I knew it was the time to show other women what is possible for them.